Testi Lost 2 - DempseyRollBoy, Shiloh Dynasty

Lost 2

Eyes like the ocean, so hypnotizing\nWhen she left, that was a moment of silence\nThe love that she showed me was real, it was priceless\nI lost it all, now I feel like I’m lifeless\nI knew someday that I’d probably lose her\nCuz why in the fuck would she stay with a loser?\nIf I ain’t got her, what’s the point of a future?\nWe met on the internet, I can’t compute her\nShe left my head spinnin', I still don’t get it\nI thought what we had was truly poetic\nNow it’s too late, I can’t change my perspective\nI stay up late wide awake with depression\nEverything seems to be triggerin' flashbacks\nI don’t know how I could ever move past that\nWe’re not conventional people, we’re abstract\nI can’t accept that I messed up my last chance\nEveryone’s better off staying away from me\nY’all should forget me, yeah, don’t even pray for me\nCan’t find a purpose, I’m wandering aimlessly\nI’ll never have any sense of complacency\nIt’s hard to live but it’s easy to die\nAnd sometimes I think I should give in in my mind\nI spend way too much time, dressing up lies\nI was stupid to think that she would be my bride\nShe did what’s best for her, she dodged a bullet\nI’m empty, she wants to live life to the fullest\nThere’s way too much weight on my brain, I can’t pull it\nShe was my home but now that place is ruined\nI’ll never change, I’m romantic and passionate\nMy sense of love is enhanced, I can’t manage it\nCall me affectionate, call me inadequate\nCall me whatever you want, I’ma answer it\nWhen I make music, I reopen wounds\nIt takes a toll on me, I play it cool\nBut I know it’ll catch up, I’m already doomed\nI’ma die alone on the dark side of the moon\nI’m lost again, I guess the cycle continues\nTime pass but it didn’t resolve any issues\nAn endless illusion is what I slipped into\nI’m blinded, my eyes only see her, I miss you\nBroken into pieces, can’t seem to find any reason\nTo fight on and keep on breathin', I’ll try but I’ll be defeated\nMy energy’s low depleted, can’t stand the way that I’m treated\nI’d rather just be deleted, I’ll never feel like I’m needed\nI’m happiest when I’m dreaming, I’m silent inside, I’m screaming\nDisguised in my scars, I’m bleeding, I’m someone she can’t believe in\nDiscreet, I’ve been keeping secrets, appearances are deceiving\nYou never know what you’re seeing, I’m hurting, I’m still not healing