Testi Suicide Letter 3 - Trick James, Shiloh Dynasty

Suicide Letter 3

Whoever knew I’d ever end up like this\nAll these drugs inside my system, numb the pain on my wrist\nYeah, the winter coming days are colder, times are getting shorter Bitch I’m\ntwenty-one my dreams are fading cause I’m getting older\nOh shit, I think I’m running out of time now\nI wish I knew how it felt, to make you mine now\nI’m dreaming with a broken heart, but waking up the hardest part,\nso Imma take these fucking xans until my heart falls apart\nYou not in lov until you take your own life, I slit my wrist, and then sh left\nme with a heart full of ice\nOoh, I’m kinda happy that we didn’t work out, but\nBitch I’m depressed because I’m stuck in my house\nMy nigga Victor, he gave his fucking shorty all he had, he left his friends and\ngot a job because she made my friend a dad\nI’m not goin tell your business, Vick I love you like a brother,\nbut we both know your shorty brought you hell in the summer\nThat’s on my soul\nLoves a myth, I’m only telling two stories\nI keep my secrets to myself because you don’t have to worry\nYou hold her tight so she can bathe me in tears, she broke your heart and only\nleft you in fear\nI’m not a saint or a demon, I guess I’m something in between but when I say\ndepressing lyrics, hoe you know just what I mean\nDon’t follow in my footsteps, strongest might not be the smartest,\nI’ll fucking go to hell before she treat you like garbage\nLoves a movie, this a page out my chapter\nI lost my faith in fucking god I start ignoring my pastor, the devil watching\nand talking, hear him talk while I speak\nHe turn my dreams into nightmares so I try hard not to sleep\nI’m depressed I’m upset, my eyes red I’m possessed\nCancer sticks in my ashtray bitch I want death nothing less\nLife ain’t fair love is pointless so I just drown in my sorrow and I ain’t ever\nget you back just like the clothes that you borrow\nMy nigga Eli lost his life, my nigga Jaysoh lost his mind, your ex bitch used\nyou she doesn’t need you, hope you feel it in your spine\nYou ain’t stupid you ain’t dumb, take your drugs and just some wine She don’t\nwant you, she just need you, bruh I love you I ain’t lying\nThe past is the past, I hope you’re forgiving\nThe walls are really getting closer in the room that I’m sitting\nBut Imma hold you down like ankles weights the way I’m gonna make away\nWe go’n get rich and move up out of state\nThat’s on my soul