Testo Lip Service - Xana

Lip Service

You can't hurt me
Anymore than you have already
It's taking everything in me
Not to be petty
What once was easy
Is now feeling pretty heavy
Waiting is romance
Until they are never ready

All that lip service
Filled me right up and over the surface
I get next to you and I still get nervous
The stomach drop when you said
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this

"It's just not like you"
Is what I tell myself
But how could I know that?
I guess it's true love
Cause you always come right back
Or reliability is what you lack
(I don't wanna know that)

You talk of timing
Like our planets just aren't aligning
As if we don't have any say in deciding
As if my tongue is the only one I'm biting
As if I don't have all your confessions down in writing
(Yeah, it's the timing)

All that lip service
Filled me right up and over the surface
I get next to you and I still get nervous
The stomach drop when you said
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this

I can't let you lie to me
I don't know who you're trying to be
I didn't wanna up and leave
But I knew you wouldn't stay with me
I think about you all the time
We thought it would but it never died
My guilt is who I sleep beside
I wonder if you're warm tonight

We tried to control all the damage
Yeah, you couldn't let go, I couldn't handle
All the doubt in my mind came and swallowed
All that's left is the hurt where you hollowed
I can't listen to the songs that you gave me
Wish you'da saved yourself cause now I gotta save me
Now I gotta save me

Is there a world we could make this better?
Will I question your intentions forever?
My skull is cracking under pressure
But Phoebe said "it's for the better"
I double back on the overpass
Yeah, I do what I can to make this last
You tell me that it's real and it cuts like glass
I'm scared of how I feel when you talk like that

(When you talk like that)
(Can I talk like that?)
(When you talk like that)
(And you talk like that)
(When you talk like that)
(Can we talk?)

You were a gift tho
And I would do it all again so
Maybe we can try whenever you are able
I'm not waiting I'm just sitting at the table