| You’d think after all these years of being clean I’d get my feelings back
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| Right? |
| So why it don’t feel like that
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| It’s like God built my heart with a shield attached
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| Shawty always wanna argue, I can’t deal with that
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| So instead of facing my problems, I walk away
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| And I leave the relationship in an awkward way
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| I used to talk about rape like it was funny
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| And then they raped the woman that was close to me
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| Now I listen to those tracks and I can’t believe
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| That a younger me could lack such compassion and empathy
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| And I would probably give a kidney
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| Just for my female fans they could forgive me
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| The younger me would probably think I was soft
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| But I look back at them days and I know I was lost, uh
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| Living life without a care in the world
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| So, how could I ever care 'bout a girl?
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| When I couldn’t even care for myself
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| Tryna numb the pain, taking every drug on the shelf
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| How could you forgive me when I can’t forgive myself? |
| Uh
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| Thank you for your patience
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| All these years clean and I’m still isolating
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| I’m sorry I kept you waiting
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| Shit, fuck, run that back, uh
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| This a token of my affection
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| Wrote these thoughts down on this paper while you were resting
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| As you get older, your life takes a direction
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| When it comes to my love, know there’s never a question, uh
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| This is a token of my affection
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| When you staring in the mirror, don’t recognize your reflection
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| Just know you gonna be great like you always been destined
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| Keep me by your side you’ll never need no protection
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| A little girl is waking up this morning going to her stepfather that touched
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| her last night
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| And she gotta smile in front of her mother, sister and her brother
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| Just like everything is alright when it’s not
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| Baby girl, I wish I was there to make you special
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| I wish I was there to make him respect you
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| But overall I wish I could jump to that kitchen table
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| Sit right next to you and protect you
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| Just know half of the kids at school are going through the same thing
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| And it’s not your fault, so you can blame him
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| He’s gonna get whats coming to him
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| 'Cause karma catches up with everyone and it knows what he’s doing
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| How could you selfishly ruin a life and diminish it?
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| There’s nothing more precious than a child’s innocence
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| All the issues that stem from mental imprisonment
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| How could you stand yourself and live with it?
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| I promise you, if I ever catch him I’m a motherfuckin' finish him
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| Come here, nigga
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| No, no, I promise, no, I prom— I promise!
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| This is a token of my affection
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| Keep me by your side you’ll never need no protection
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| I’m here to make right what is destined
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| I love you
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| Yeah
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| You even remember half the shit?
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| Yeah
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| How’d it start?
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| I’ma, I’ma go back
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| I’ma go back to where
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| Hey, hello
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| Ay, we’re doin' a skit here
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| Relax, relax, lady
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| I’ma go back to where
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| A mutual friend of ours
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| I gave him a CD
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| That’s way back
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| That’s like
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| Niggas don’t even know
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| Well, we’ll get to that
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| That’s right
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| We’ll get to that
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| Eight years ago, right?
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| Yes, and I remember it had two fire beats
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| One of them is Ebonics
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| That we used just now
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| Yeah
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| Hundred percent
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| And the other one is Bang, Bang, Bidat that I did on Planet of the Apes shit
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| Hundred percent
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| But I was like, yo, the shit is on a CD
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| Hundred percent
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| Like, I need it in email
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| It was like, yo, Frank don’t email
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| He only give you beat CDs
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| Yeah
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| I’m like, yo, what the fuck is that, man?
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| Aight, so then that happened
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| Sittin' on those beats for mad long
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| Word
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| The Ebonics beat I sent to Necro to try to get on
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| Word, I remember, I remember hearin' through the grapevine that you were gonna
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| try and get a couple people on that
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| I had even sent it to Immortal Technique, I’m not sure
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| But that was my, that’s who I had in mind
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| Boom
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| But so, how did the album come about?
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| Aight, so check it out, this is how it came about
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| I had the shit with MTV
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| Yes
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| So, boom, I had the deal with MTV
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| And they wanted me to get
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| They wanted me to get a cast
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| Yeah
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| So I went
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| I had the show
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| I had the show, but poli-tricks, you know what I’m sayin'?
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| Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
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| So long story short
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| Short story long
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| What happened was |
| Is um, I’m like, okay
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| I picked, I picked out of, I already picked out two people
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| And I’m like, I need Nems
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| So, boom, so I hit you up, I’m like, «Yo, I got this situation goin' on»
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| Blazay-blah, you really didn’t believe me at first
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| Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| 'Cause mad niggas come like, «I got this goin' on, I got this TV show about to
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| come out, niggas is lyin'»
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| I remember son, I told y’all
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| Then you put me in contact with the nigga Ryan
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| Right, right right
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| Then I was like, «This nigga real»
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| And you was like, you was like
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| «I got a TV show too, nigga, Gorilla TV on YouTube»
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| And I was like, I was like, «Aight, no doubt, no doubt»
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| I was like, «Lemme just get my man a call 'em» and then he get that conference
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| call goin' on
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| And, and then he’ll see what it is
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| So boom
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| So that went down, right
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| Okay, then what happened was like
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| We linked up, we linked up and I was in Crown Heights, I was livin' in Crown
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| Heights
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| I was over there on Pacific between Ocean and New York
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| Boom, like, yo
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| We had to do the, the conference call
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| Yeah
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| It was them MTV niggas
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| Yeah, yeah, yeah
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| So you was like, boom
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| I’ma come through
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| I’ma come through and we gonna, we gon', we gonna build on what we gonna do,
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| you know what I’m sayin'?
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| Or how we gonna work this out when we talk to these people
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| So boom, we was buildin'
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| We was just shootin' the shit, you know what I mean?
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| And then you was like, «Yo, you know what would be ill?»
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| And I was like, «What's that?»
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| You was like, «Yo, your beats and my bars»
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| And I was like, yo, I was like, son, like, yo
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| I was like, «Yo, that’s a, that’s a great idea, bro»
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| I was like, that’s a
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| 'Cause originally I had in mind, I was like
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| Yo, we do like five, six joints
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| I figured the TV show was gonna come out
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| Right, right, right
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| We could drop it at the same time
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| Right
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| Do a tour, all of that
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| 'Cause, yo, on the strength
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| On the strength
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| A hundred, a hundred, a hundred percent, a hundred percent
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| True story
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| I was, I was thinkin' like
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| Yo, if anything, man, like
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| I gotta do an album for Nems
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| Like, for real, I was like
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| This shit just happened organically, like
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| That, like
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| What I mean
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| Boom
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| Like
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| What happened was
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| Was, aight, aight
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| Time passes, right
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| And you gave me a CD with mad beats
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| Nah, but time had passed and you kept
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| Hey, yo, hit me, these fucking beats
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| Yeah, 'cause we was also
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| And then the show
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| Then you sent me mad beats
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| And I was like, yo
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| What am I gonna do with a fuckin' CD of beats, nigga?
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| It’s twenty, it mighta been twenty, sixteen, twenty-seven
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| Right, right
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| Yo, what am I gonna do with a CD full of beats, nigga?
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| My car don’t even got a CD player
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| I don’t got a CD player in my crib
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| Like, it was
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| I was like, yo
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| You gotta find a way to email me these beats 'cause I can’t go to the studio
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| with these fuckin'
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| With a CD and record over 'em
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| That’s unprofessional
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| That’s it
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| Then it took, like, a couple months
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| Then you finally got the beats to me through email
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| Right, right, right, right, right
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| And I just started goin' through 'em like boom
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| Then, then the first joint I did was the Timb boots shit
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| Boots upside of your head
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| Yeah
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| That was the first one, but once I did that I was like
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| Yo, this joint is stupid hard, everybody I played it for was like
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| Yo, this shit is crazy
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| Know what I’m sayin'?
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| So from that point, fuckin', like
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| I just started doin' joints then you just started sendin' me more joints
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| through the email
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| Finally you caught up with the times, and then
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| Yo, and then it moved from five or six songs, shit
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| Nah, nah, it wasn’t even that
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| I hit you with ten joints at first
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| Yeah, yeah
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| And I swear I think you picked like seven
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| Yeah
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| 'Cause I was like, I was, I was like
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| Yo, I’ma, I was like
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| I’m goin' to the, to of the top of the line
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| And I’m just gonna throw Nems on the top of the line
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| You know what I mean?
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| Yup
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| Then boom, boom, in the end it was like
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| You was like
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| Yo, 'cause I also was recordin' an album
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| I was recordin' my alpha album
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| I had like, couple songs done
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| And I was like, yo lemme just bang this out real quick |
| It’s gonna be like six joints, we’re gonna do it mad quick
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| And then you just kept sendin' me fire and I was like
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| Yo, aight, now I gotta do this
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| Then that happened to be ten joints
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| And then eleven, you know what I’m sayin'
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| Then I just was like
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| Then the show is a wrap, you know what I’m sayin'?
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| The show is a wrap and I already was like
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| Yo, you know
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| Now I’m just fuckin' stuck with this loser
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| Hahahahahaha
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| No, but, I was like, yo
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| This shit is fire, know what I’m sayin'?
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| Like, these shits is fire
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| It became a main priority
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| 'Cause in the meantime, did Gahbage and once I did Gahbage and I started
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| performin' it
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| I was like, yo, God
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| That’s it
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| No matter where I go I perform that shit
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| Everyone’s like, yo, where is it? |
| Where can I get it?
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| And I was like, it ain’t out yet, chill, fall back
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| You can’t get this shit
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| Yo, I been to certain places and
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| You know me, you know, me havin' a little name
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| Know what I’m sayin'?
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| Know me
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| But just havin' a
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| Those that know
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| I remember I was in
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| I was chillin' one night, you was havin' dinner somewhere
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| And I was with my man and he
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| He hit up
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| He hit up some of his peoples
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| And they came through and you was like
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| Yo, this the dude that did Gahbage
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| And they was like
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| Word? |
| You did that?
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| And I was like, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that’s me
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| You know what I mean?
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| So I was like
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| That’s when I was like
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| Yeah
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| And then
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| Every time I see the footage of you performin' it
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| And I’m like
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| Yo, that’s the joint, that’s the joint right there
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| I was like
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| And then I started doin' some real joints on there
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| I’m just like, yo
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| This shit, this is it right here
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| Then now the shit is finished and the shit is
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| Shit is next level, nigga
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| Yeah, nah, this, this album
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| This is like
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| This
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| This
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| Aight, you know what I’m sayin'?
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| I been puttin'
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| This is probably my
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| This is
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| This is gonna be my first
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| You know, joint that I get to do
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| With a rapper
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| 'Cause, you know
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| I’m, I, um
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| See, you see how, you see what I’m talkin' about?
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| Um, this is gonna be the first joint I do with like
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| You know, a rap I did the beat tapes and all of that
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| But this right here, this is like somethin' really special, man
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| And it’s Brooklyn, too
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| Yup
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| That is Brooklyn, know what I’m sayin'?
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| Big time Brooklyn
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| And it’s Brooklyn, too, you know what I mean?
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| That alone, this is real special to me
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| Hundred percent
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| Know what I mean? |
| It’s just really special to me
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| That’s a fact
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| And it’s like, I’ve given people beats before
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| You feel me?
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| And usually, bro, like, nine times, nine and a half times out of ten I’m like
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| Nah, I take the shit back
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| Son
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| My word to you
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| Every time you brought, you sent me back
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| I was like
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| You knew the, you knew the time signatures
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| You knew like, when to come in, you knew what the chorus was
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| 'Cause I give somebody a beat, right?
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| Yup
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| I give somebody a beat
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| And they be rhymin' over the chorus
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| I’m like, how you don’t know that’s the chorus
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| Niggas don’t even know that either, because
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| You sent me the joints done already, like
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| They wasn’t tracked out
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| What you sent me was basically like I had it on the CD
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| So what I had to do is I had to figure out aight
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| This part is for the chorus, oh, this got a drop right here
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| Alright, I’m gonna say some ill shit right here so it drops out
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| So I had to write my rhymes around the beats
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| Niggas take the beats and make the beats around the rhymes
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| I did it the opposite way and wrote my rhymes to how the beat was,
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| you know what I’m sayin'?
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| So if this beat had fuckin', eighteen bars and then the chorus, I had to write
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| eighteen bars and then the chorus
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| And then I just feel like
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| You know, it got, it sounds grimy 'cause it’s supposed to
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| You hear the hisses in it, like it’s bein' played on a tape
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| 'Cause it’s supposed to
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| Word
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| Know what I’m sayin'?
|
| All the samples that I chose outta the samples that have been done on other
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| songs 'cause you freaked it better than the original song, but it’s also like
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| Payin' homage to us growin' up and the classic joints that was growin' up, like
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| You know what I’m sayin' |
| And the thing is, what’s crazy is, it just happened like that
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| Hundred percent
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| It wasn’t meant to be like that
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| We wasn’t like, yo
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| We gonna, uh, aight, this, like, aight, we gonna
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| We’re gonna do like a throwback
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| We’re gonna do like a tribute-type
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| Nah, bro
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| This shit just happened
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| Yeah
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| This wasn’t like
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| We didn’t premeditate it, you know what I’m sayin'?
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| Like, this shit just happened
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| I think, I think, I think that’s because
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| Both of us, you’re a student of the game
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| On the beatmakin' side, I’m a student of the game
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| Just music, not even you on the beat
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| A full student like both of us are true students of the game
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| And I feel like
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| That just made like, my style is not attributed to one rapper
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| Like some niggas don’t never leave the house and they whole style sounds like
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| Jay-Z
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| Know what I’m sayin'?
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| 'Cause they just listen to Jay-Z
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| They come outside, that’s all they rap about
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| 'Cause they never did nothin'
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| We from New York, more importantly, Brooklyn
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| Word
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| And, and we from the era where you had to be outside to get your name up, like
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| We couldn’t just spit no freestyles
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| No internet
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| Yeah
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| No internet
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| You had to be outside, like
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| You had to be outside to get your name up
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| You had to take the train
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| You had to get on
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| You had to get on the train, man
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| All types of shit
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| Had to go to the city
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| That shit was just like, yo
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| We, we
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| The shit is like, uh
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| An homage, homage, however you wanna say it to New York City
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| Word
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| Know what I’m sayin'
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| I mean, without bein' said because you could hear it
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| Hundred percent
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| Without like, without, without even sayin' that
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| Like you could hear that
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| From, from the vocals to the beats to the accent, the whole shit
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| The whole shit
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| You know what I’m sayin'?
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| You know, you got
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| We show you what, we show you
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| It’s the sound of what we come from
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| You know what I mean?
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| And not for nothin', this shit is phat
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| Full circle
|
| This is
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| Thank you, yo, Nems, I was just gonna say that
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| This shit came back full circle, man
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| Niggas is tired of that fuckin'
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| Exactly
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| That bullshit
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| Exactly
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| And I ain’t even gonna say that mumble shit
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| 'Cause it goes way beyond that, before that
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| Hundred percent
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| And this bullshit after it
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| And it came back full circle, man
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| So what we, what we do naturally
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| Is, is back in the forefront, man, you know what I mean?
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| So it’s a beautiful thing
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| So we could drop this album now and
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| And, and
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| And not be like, damn
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| We wanna drop this and this shit might fuckin'
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| Might not pass through the cracks, it’s gonna
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| You know
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| Like it’s gonna be in the shadows of certain shit
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| Nah, because this shit came back full circle
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| My whole career, man, everything I been tryna do right
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| Yo, what up
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| It’s good
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| What up, what up, what up
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| Good, baby
|
| Right, right
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| That’s my man Nems
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| That video’s fire my G
|
| Y’all did it right
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| Three in one? |
| That’s ill
|
| Yeah, yeah
|
| Gotta keep flippin' them original stories like that
|
| Hundred percent
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| Word, word, that was dope
|
| I was like, yeah
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| Yeah, that’s a fact
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| Hahahaha
|
| Play that shit again
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| That’s the whole point
|
| Hahaha
|
| Play that shit again
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| I watched that shit a couple of times |