| There’s something rotten inside me
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| You told me to be better, ain’t honestly likely
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| You told me to be more, truth is I cannot be
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| You told me to be smart, kept promising I’m free
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| You told me to be strong and belong, alarmed me
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| That otherwise my life won’t be long and lively
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| Do something when I’m gone they don’t despise me
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| You told me don’t be wrong
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| Forgotten that I’m me?
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| Become something that I’m not
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| Crushed between the four walls, ceiling and the floor boards
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| I can’t walk nor see forwards, when I talk my speech Mordor
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| Scrambled thoughts that need order
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| Not in reach, they’re lost in deep waters
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| Drawing on sleep exhausts my zeal harder
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| Caught in grief I’ve honestly authored
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| I don’t wanna swim no more, I wanna fly
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| Looking up at those that do, but I don’t identify
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| I feel lonely when I try, my dreams always seem to die
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| I keep falling, I’m so sorry, I’m appalling in your eyes
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| Show me how to be, I’ll show you how to not
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| I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
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| Yeah, I’m flawed as hell, I could never love myself
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| As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
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| Show me how to be, I’ll show you how to not
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| I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
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| Yeah, I’m flawed as hell, I could never love myself
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| As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
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| Beep, beep, beep, beep-beep, beep
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| Beat, I reach for the screen, I need sleep
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| This sequence is bleak, it reeks, then repeats
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| Week after week, increasing my fatigue, I feel weak
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| Tough to conceive I still bleed
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| When I seem to be proceeding on reflex, deceit
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| That I could feel relief, that I could seek dreams
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| Which, seemingly all my experiences deplete
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| See at the beginning they said that I would be winning
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| What a beautiful thought, but one I no longer believe in
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| Belief feels belittling, now I’ve been beaten
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| Bested beast, depressed and defeated
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| So rest in peace to me that felt different
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| Guess I failed at living, guess I fell and I guess I’m frail
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| So my failure isn’t your fault, just the weather shifted
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| And my feathers withered, uh
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| Show me how to be, I’ll show you how to not
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| I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
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| Hell yeah, I’m flawed as hell, I could never love myself
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| As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
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| Show me how to be, I’ll show you how to not
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| I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
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| Hell yeah, I’m flawed as hell, I could never love myself
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| As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
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| One lonely night, coming home from work to heavy rain
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| Thirty feet from the train cross I cross everyday
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| Bar halfway down, I don’t hesitate
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| Close both my eyes and for heaven’s sake hit me today
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| I just want it all to be erased, disappear with the fear and despair
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| Dissipate, all I’ve ever done is been afraid
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| All I’ve ever done been is been this way
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| You claim I ain’t broken and you liken my wounds
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| To things that you deal with, with ease, I should too
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| You make me hate me more than I should hate you
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| It’s always you, you, you
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| But mama, I’m me
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| I just wanna be
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| And I hope you’re okay with that |