Testi Dead Flowers - Begonia

Dead Flowers

Dead flowers all around me
Line the halls
In every room
I used to find them pretty
Used to love their sweet perfume
Reminded me of the dandelions cut from my parents yard
Reminded me times I didn’t need to try so hard
Dead flowers
Dead flowers
Dead
Past midnight in a hotel room
These late hours that I keep
Used to scream out stories from my bed
Kept my sister from her sleep
Reminds me of the times you told me I best settle down
Reminds me of the names I earned when no one was around
Past midnight
Darkest moonlight
Dead
And anytime I try to be mad
I seem to empathize
When friends say you’re not right in the head
It don’t stop this crying
I’m skating on a line
Trying to be fine
I should be by now
If I just count the years gone by
Dead flowers all around me
I don’t keep them just for fun
They used to be a sign I would hide from everyone
Reminding me of consolation after words would cut
Reminding me of all the ways that you kept my mouth shut
Reminds me of the time you broke down my front door
Reminding me of how you cannot hurt me anymore