Testo Losing My Mind - MBNel

Losing My Mind

I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling from my eyes and my perspective
If it's money to be made then I'ma get it
I ain't starting nothing if I wasn't plannin' to finish
All I do is express my feelings in my music I still feel nobody gets it
If I
Could paint a picture worth a million words
Murder in tha air, they get that urge then they gon start to purge
Done with putting myself second, it's time to put me first
And I had learn these lessons, when life start getting worse
Letter to my momma I apologize
For all tha times I made you cry
And every time she seen me put that pistol by my side
Look inside my eyes, it just seem like I'm angry all tha time
But deep inside, I'm tryna hide the fact I'm really scared to die
And everytime
I feel like I'ma loose my mind
To fuck I look like crying
Coming from that jungle, gave me heart of lions
Aye, I just wanna shine
You ain't a man, if you ain't fall and got back up at least a hunnid times

This shit get hectic
Diamonds dancing on my necklace
I'm getting tired of doing shit to be accepted
Fuck every meeting at every label, got use to being rejected
Every word in every verse, I ever said just know I meant it
I am not promoting violence, I just speak on what I'm living
Ion ask for nothin' back, ion count the times I was helping
All tha times that I gave back, but its like I don't get my credit
But when I do some for myself, they got the nerve, to call me selfish

Ain't it crazy...
Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me
Ain't it crazy...
Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me
Ain't it crazy...
Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me
Ain't it crazy...
Same shit that made me, might be the same thing that break me

Stuck between rapping, drilling or tryna make some melodies
They telling me, that I could blow, if I make songs they was telling me
I tell em I making songs for the people that relate to me
My chemistry with rappers is off its hard me to make friends with me
And lately I been DND I ain't been checking my messages
I started living better when I don't compare who's next to me
I'm holding on weaponry
Sad to say it's what's protecting me
Feel like I'm close to blowing just let me show u the best of me

If I'm calling you my brother just don't turn you ain't gotta question me
You tell me that you love me, is you or the ecstasy
Message to my bitch, you get you my all just don't think the less of me
And I've been stirring up the pot, they asking for the recipe
I use to have heart, till them losses just took the rest of me
Life ain't gave me lemons, I stole it right off the lemon tree
SRT engine I'm speeding drinking onna Hennessy
And god ain't gave me answers, I wanted he kept on testing me

Apparently it worked
Cuz I stood tall through the adversity
I'm sorry my child, I keep this pistol on me personally
Hard to live normal, when you ain't kno who tryna murder me
Don't question when you wit me, n why I move wit urgency
Before I had the diamonds, was robbing and doing burglaries
I'm glad I had these flaws, cuz I ain't want to fit in perfectly
Sick I got that call, when Brodie ain't make it out tha surgery
Mistakes, I made, help me make it, ain't do it purposely
Please excuse my French, don't want you thinking it's rude of me
Been shopping for some acres so fuck a gated community irs
Enough that, bro just took 20 ain't even 20 yet
We just tryna catch a succa, put bullets into his fitted cap