| I’m sick of losing family, everytime I blink my eyes
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| And at the rate that it’s going, fell like I need to stay inside
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| Cause I don’t wanna be the next nigga, to fall in a coffin
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| Lord knows everybody, that I love die often
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| Or wind up in the cage, and I don’t seem to understand
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| It ain’t nothing but a few of us left, I can count on my hand
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| If I tried to make a song, for everyone that I lost
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| I’d prolly have a triple c.d., in my deck when I floss
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| And that’s a damn shame, people entertained by pain
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| I think I’m only selling records, cause I’m going through it mayn
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| I received a phone call, from my old man today
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| He was going crazy, cause his older sister passed away
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| And in my mind, I think she looking down smiling away
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| But still it hurt, I’m writing this and it ain’t even been a day
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| At least I got to giver her a kiss, and told her I love her
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| Hey Christina, promise it’ll never be another damn
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| I’ma keep thugging, till the day I drop
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| Cause it feel like I’m losing, everything I got
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| On my knees asking God, is it ever gon stop
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| But he don’t answer me back, I hope he help me out
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| To tell the truth I’m never being happy, now-a-days
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| In my everyday living, will make a nigga wanna blaze
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| I don’t smoke, so I’m running reality head on All the pressure and pain, coming to me is dead wrong
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| Only time I get to smile, is when I see my lil’boy
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| If he only knew I’m riding down, for my boy
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| I ain’t got too many friends, so I’m riding by myself
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| Your own kin’ll try to do you, when on a mission for wealth
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| I was told, every person get a day of they own
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| I guess they skipped over mine, I been in line for too long
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| Why they won’t leave me alone, I just wanna have a life
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| I’m sick of living in the dark, tripping searching for the light
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| I’m a soldier so I fight, till I’m running out of breath
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| And I ain’t running from the devil, it’s war until the death
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| Dear Lord help me out, I think you missing all my calls
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| My back against the wall, and I ain’t got no time to fall at all
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| It ain’t no mo’telling me, that it’s gonna be ok
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| I watched the judge, try to throw my roll dog life away
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| It’s safe to say, any day I’ma be checking in With everything that I’m facing, they gotta let me in
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| I only rap about the struggle, cause it’s all that I know
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| I’m assuming people hate me, because it’s all that they show
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| I never asked to be a rapper, I was stuck with it And fuck this shit, cause I don’t fell I’m having luck with it And it seem like I’m really tripping, sometimes
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| And I really want, is the Lord to show me a sign
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| Cause everything been rough, when it’s coming to me and mine
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| Since it’s raining everyday, I’ll be praying the sun’ll shine
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| But it don’t, and on the real I don’t feel that it will
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| I’m the last one left, until I end up getting killed
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| I wanna turn away, but still I know that it’s real
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| And deep inside I pray, that the Lord’ll be my shield, my pain is for real |