Testi Lullaby - Kalie Shorr

Lullaby

I don’t want to chain smoke cigarettes by myself anymore
Don’t want to drink whiskey out of the bottle on the bathroom floor
And I don’t want to hate somebody I barely know just for loving you
Because if I’m honest, I get it, once upon a time I did too
This is the sound of letting it go
Of learning to sleep when you’re sleeping alone
Of figuring out how to love when you don’t
I’m gonna scream, and I’m gonna cry
But tonight I won’t need the hallway light
I’m singing one last lullaby
And I’m putting this to bed
I built a little altar to all that’s left of what we were
I lit a few Mother Mary candles that I stole from a Catholic church
I let it be, I let it burn, let it go, just like us
I said a prayer, I sang a song, and I think Jesus heard me cuss
This is the sound of letting it go
Of learning to sleep when you’re sleeping alone
Of figuring out how to love when you don’t
I’m gonna scream, and I’m gonna cry
But tonight I won’t need the hallway light
I’m singing one last lullaby
And I’m putting this to bed
I’m putting this to bed
I won’t lie and say it’s easy
Even I wouldn’t believe me
I ain’t trying to be mean
But thanks for leaving
This is the sound of letting it go
Of learning to sleep when you’re sleeping alone
Of figuring out how to love when you don’t
I’m gonna scream, and I’m gonna cry
But tonight I won’t need the hallway light
I’m singing one last lullaby
And I’m putting this to bed
I’m putting this to bed
I’m putting this to bed