Testi Surrender (A Second to Think) - Saul Williams

Surrender (A Second to Think)

Well, there’re two ways I can say this\nAnd one would be: fuck you!\nAnd there’re no two ways around it\nBecause one would be untrue.\nBecause I love everything about you.\nBut I don’t want to be around you\nIf you control my heart will you control my brain?\nIf I give in to you, will it still feel the same?\n'Cause I want nothing more than to be here with you\nIf you fulfill my dreams, will that fulfill you too?\nI need a second.\nI need a second to think.\nI need a second.\nNow, the other way to play this\nWould be mellow, light, and, cool\nPoetry and meditation\nHigher ground and higher truth.\nBecause I love everything about you\nBut I use everything to doubt you\nIf you control my heart will you control my brain?\nIf I give in to you, will it still feel the same?\n'Cause I want nothing more than to be here with you.\nIf you fulfill my dreams, will that fulfill you too?\nI need a second.\nI need a second to think.\nI need a second.\nI found the spot where truth echoes and know each beauty mark by heart.\nBut I just can’t keep her still enough to render perfect art.\n'Cause the truth is ever changing and although she loves my touch,\nI’ve had my way, but I when I pray, she kisses back too much.\nAnd it’s hard to feel real gangster when you’re always getting kissed.\nBut you jump at every pucker, 'cause your fear of getting dissed.\nI try not to fight the parts of me that want to kiss her back.\nEgos should be illegal. Mine just don’t know how to act.\nHe tells me I don’t need her. I should walk this path alone.\nShe’s make believe. She’s up my sleeve.\nI’d do better with a clone.\nBut could it be It seems to me that she’s my other half.\nMy inner-Tarzan monkey girl, raised mainly by giraffes.\nAnd besides she makes me laugh.\n'Cause deep down I think she’s stupid.\nBut deeper down, I’m just a clown starting bar room brawls with cupid,\nlike, «Fuck that naked baby angel, doll and gimme 2 more buttery nipples».\nAnd God just re-invents herself as ice-cubes in my ripple.