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The Perfect Match

I just feel so broken\nThis situation left me wide open\nIt’s been a couple months and we ain’t spoken\nNo drama in my life\nNow I am so focused\nFor years I felt so hopeless\nI used to doubt my gifts\nI used to blame myself\nWonder why I’s never enough\nI couldn’t ask for help\nCuz if I told my friends all of the things you did\nThey’d probably tell me to never speak to you again\nI refused to see what was in front of me\nAnd I forgive you for everything you’ve done to me\nCuz I know you got problems, you got issues\nAnd I ain’t gon be there anymore to fix you\nI’m not a punching bag\nI’m a person with emotions\nI’m a beautiful inspirational, giving soul\nSo, listen\nI don’t need that apology I’m never gonna get\nBut honestly, I’m filled with regret\nThey say it gets better and I know it does\nAfter years of abuse, now I know it ain’t love\nCuz love don’t hurt\nLove ain’t a weapon\nLove don’t hate\nAnd love don’t love sections\nLove don’t lie\nLove don’t humiliate\nExcited for the future, but it’s still today\nAnd I can’t even breathe cuz I’m crying\nYou watch me bleed as I’m dying\nYou punish me with the silence\nFuck it, imma let it out in my writing\nI’m so scared of you when I think bout all the things you do\nLove hurts — learned that in my childhood\nSo you were the perfect match\nI don’t know you, don’t know if I ever did\nYou don’t even know yourself\nMan, who am I kidding?\nYou made me sick\nDealing with the same fucken shit\nYou drove me crazy\nYou wanna destroy me\nPromise me you’re changing\nBut you ain’t do shit for me\nYou’re a liar\nYou’re a faker\nI despise you\nYou’re a hater\nRemember you screaming in my face?\nRemember when you called me names?\nRemember when I packed your shit?\nRemember when I kicked you out our place?\nI pity you\nI feel sorry for you\nI hope you find your peace\nAnd grow the strength to flatten out your demons\nThis rock bottom\nBeen here for so long — I forgot it\nI forgot my worth\nI forgot my soul\nI forgot I’m special\nI forgot I’m gold\nI’m not in love with you anymore\nI don’t feel like I did before\nYou’ll never know what this like\nAnd that’s the funny thing about life\nSometimes you don’t get to see the karma come back\nBut she’s coming for you, baby\nThat’s a known fact\nYou control me, don’t want me to be free\nEvery time I’d make a friend — you’d come in between things\nYou ain’t happy for my success\nYou don’t celebrate when I win\nHonestly, I’m so depressed\nThis where we end and me loving life begins\nNo more lies\nNo more games\nNo more neglect\nNo more disrespect\nYou broke me\nRest in peace to the old me\nThe one that used to endure all the trauma\nAnd hug you back when you apologized as you cried\nAnd hold me tight, tell me ‘everything gon be alright'\nRight…\nWhy are you so mean?\nHow could you do those things to me?\nHow could I stay for so many years?\nRiver flowing, so many tears\nI just need time\nI just need space\nI don’t ever wanna see you again\nSo please don’t try to contact me\nI don’t care if you broke\nI don’t care if you hurt\nI don’t care if they bury your body in the dirt\nCuz you did me so wrong, scarred me so bad\nI’m writing this song, honestly, I’m so mad\nI’m so sad\nI’m so glad i made it out\nI escaped\nI broke free\nBack to being me\nFuck the old me\nThe new me gon be the me you won’t see