| Everything I feel is mud…
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| nothing hurts quite like this does…
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| I feel it in my bones.
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| My whole world’s spinning from above, and everything I am is mud.
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| Dirty…
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| filthy…
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| I’m shapeless…
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| empty…
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| Blood, sweat and tears fuel the hurt, mixed with a lifetime of doing dirt.
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| And all the dirt brings pain until the tears flood, then I wonder why I’m
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| standing knee deep in the mud.
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| Trying to believe in something with no evidence, can’t tell the right over the
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| wrong so I ride the fence, because in the end only a terrified fool repents.
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| I’m so dirty that getting clean don’t make no sense.
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| And since I can’t stop my world from spinning I traded my soul for guns, money,
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| weed and women.
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| The only pleasure that I get is when I’m sinning…
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| This heart won’t break but it keeps on bending.
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| Been in, been down this road before, in the back of my mind knowing everything
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| gets old, because when I’m gone everything I loved fades quick, but every time
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| I reach for the Truth I slip…
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| Everything I feel is mud…
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| nothing hurts quite like this does…
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| my whole world’s spinning from above, and everything I am is mud.
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| I can’t take this confusion no more, time to let it go.
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| Pull myself together and try stepping out on my own…
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| A child born like a paper doll, because every step out on my own ends up a
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| nasty fall.
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| I head straight down until I hit rock bottom, then hear a voice in the chaos
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| saying «I got him!» |
| Then two hands slowly pick me up, I notice holes in the wrists as
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| they lift me up out this mess I’ve made…
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| the hell I’ve been…
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| Then all the sudden everything’s spinning again.
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| I’m screaming, «God, where you at?
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| I thought that you loved me?
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| I can’t make it alone, don’t take your hand from me!» |
| Then everything goes
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| still…
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| the spinning don’t stop but His hand is all I feel.
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| Then as I pray God use me to do your will I realize I’m standing on a pottery
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| wheel…
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| Everything I am is mud in my Father’s hands above…
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| Mold me…
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| make me…
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| take me…
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| break me…
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| Everything I feel is mud…
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| nothing hurts quite like this does…
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| my whole world’s spinning from above, and everything I am is mud. |