| Well, it’s a Saturday, in July… 1992. It’s gotta be like 3… o clock… or some
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| shit
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| I hate everybody, and the more I think about it, the more I hate em.
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| And it’s just people, man. |
| It’s the fucking people. |
| I mean, I looked in the
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| mirror and I said, ‘that looks cool, man, you look like an ugly motherfucker.
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| Like a skinny little weirdo.' |
| How can I walk around town the way I am,
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| knowing that I know who I am and you people looking at me like I don’t know
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| who the fuck I am? |
| That, uh, I expect all of you, to realize who I am.
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| And that’s me being unreasonable. |
| I don’t like to let people make me make the
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| decisions by looking at them and saying ‘I think they’re saying this'
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| But they give me this attitude like… Like I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.
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| Bugs the shit out of me, man. |
| You know? |
| I keep moving and moving and trying to
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| stay a step ahead of people, even if it’s a step ahead in a direction that no
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| one’s going to go. |
| Not because they’re frightened, but because no one’s going
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| to go that way. |
| And you need a lot of directions to go forward to go
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| I can’t stand it, I’m so fucking picky. |
| That’s the way I am with my music.
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| My shit comes in, and I’m like, ‘yeah man, that’s a nasty song.
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| ' And now it’s like ‘Alright. |
| Done.' |
| In a sense of like, man, when I first did
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| it, it sounded cool, and I know it sounds cool, and I know if I play it for
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| people they’d go ‘holy shit, that’s a nasty song, man. |
| That sounds like…
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| fucking… on steroids and shit.' |
| But, it’s not that. |
| It’s the fact that I… I
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| hear these new things every time I fucking do something, you know?
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| And then I lay them down and there they are, and then I move on
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| And it’s so fucking hard, when you gotta be the fucking everything at once.
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| I mean, do anything, motherfucker, and get this shit out. |
| ‘92, how long have
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| you been doing this shit? |
| You’ve been doing the shit you’ve been doing for a
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| year. |
| And then, you’ve got some nasty shit, let me tell you. |
| You’ve always had
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| shit coming out of you. |
| That was never a problem. |
| The problem was being able to
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| associate it with yourself. |
| Now you know what you are. |
| Next thing you do is to
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| make everybody else know who you are, fucker. |
| You put things together that
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| don’t go together, that’s what it’s all about. |
| Creating is putting things
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| together that don’t go together, and you make something else
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| Because it’s all about progress, motherfucker. |
| I am progress. |
| Get off of your
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| fucking lazy ass and make something better than I made. |
| That’s the thing.
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| It’s mostly—no, that’s not me that I’m so worried about. |
| It’s not,
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| I’m not worried about who I am more than I’m worried about who I’m not
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| And I mean, you know, maybe I look like a fucking idiot; |
| maybe it’s not the
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| next thing. |
| I’m not saying that I’m trying to get hip… on the hip thing.
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| It’s all— It’s not a matter of fate, it’s a matter of choice. |
| I mean,
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| that’s one thing I got. |
| I think I will never lose that. |
| I may not always be
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| Angry Boy. |
| My music may not always be… Hard edged… or soft edged.
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| Or weird, or not weird. |
| Or straightforward, you know? |
| But the one thing I will
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| have, not to sound fucking hokey, is definite fucking complain-able sense of
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| humor. |
| Definitely different, I’ll give you that
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| And besides all of that bullshit, is I know what I’m doing. |
| Nobody ever trusted
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| that I knew what I was doing. |
| Ever since the beginning of fucking time,
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| nobody thinks I know what I’m doing. |
| I know what I’m doing! |
| ‘You know,
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| If you don’t do your homework, you’re gonna fail, do you know that?
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| ' What do you think? |
| What do you fucking think? |
| ‘If you don’t go to college
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| you’re not gonna get a good job, you’re not gonna be able to—you're not gonna
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| get a great education, nobody’s going to hire you.' |
| No shit! |
| I know this!
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| I know what goes on, and I’ve made my choices
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| And it’s frustrating to look at this world and say, ‘Hey look, you fucking
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| assholes, I’m just being me, motherfucker' and I gotta tell you how I am.
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| It’s like—oh, man, I could go on for days and days on this shit.
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| I’m not going to go on on that, I’m still fucking pissed at this shit.
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| But, I don’t give a shit
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| So, that’s the end of that |