| Karate in the driveway. Pizza rolls in the microwave. |
| Mr. Brightside on karaoke. I remember everything that you showed me, |
| Like how to tie my shoes and DDR in the living room |
| And how to fight against all the bullies who’d follow me home and always tried |
| to push me. |
| You told me never throw the first punch, |
| But make sure you throw the last. |
| And if it wasn’t for you, I would be somebody new, |
| Just another kid in the class. |
| It’s been so hard without you here with me. |
| Send me a sign if this is a mistake. |
| I need your guidance but you’re dead |
| And there’s no way that I can bring you back. |
| Two rifles in my bag ready to go. |
| Two hands reaching out for anybody to hold. |
| Hold your fire, it’s not what it seems, listen to me. |
| All I ever wanted was to be left alone. |
| All I ever wanted was my big brother back. |
| When he died, the family cried, |
| Then wiped their eyes and pretended that everything was fine. |
| I’m dying inside. |
| My bleeding heart is beating hard from being beaten hard. |
| Belts and cords and all the battle scars from civil war made me who we are. |
| So hats off to the new year. |
| You’re graduating from hell to heaven on Earth |
| In a casket the shape of a bleacher next to the teachers. |
| I hope you’re ready to die. |
| The only thing I can do is cry. |
| And I’m so scared, I don’t wanna die |
| But it’s hard to go on this way. It’ll be okay. |
| So here we are Lemon House. Home of the Cadets. |
| Home of every person that I hate. No looking back now, it’s graduation day. |
| Time to make them pay. |
| Auditorium doors in front of me, one chance for redemption, for retribution |
| I can’t do this but I have to do this. |
| Now I’m walking to the parking lot. My legs are weak and my head is spinning. |
| My conscious heavy, reality’s hitting. Why can’t I go through with anything? |
| Throwing up behind a red Camry, I’ll never get to see my Uncle Danny. |
| He would be so disappointed in me and what would my mom think? She would be so |
| heartbroken. |
| Years of planning and years of pain will not be in vain |
| Cause you wanna remain poem pathetic for the rest of your life, just commit to |
| suicide. |
| I walk back in, now security is coming. |
| My one final chance to actually be something. |
| Every one of you put me in this position |
| And it wouldn’t have happened if somebody would have listened. |