| I called the clinic and they said it was a three-week wait
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| ‘But the doctor’ll give you something just to get you through the day.'
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| I’m scared, I’ve never felt like this before
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| The only way I can stop from crying it to take deep breaths and sit on the floor
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| I woke early this morning coz my appointment was today
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| She asked me what I’ve been up to and if everything’s okay
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| I said ‘Frustration passes through me
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| The way that wind shakes trees.'
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| When the panic set in, it was all I knew
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| The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew
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| When the panic set in, it was all I knew
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| The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew
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| She asked me to go home, unclench my fists
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| Think of everything that’s stressful and start a list
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| I thought, ‘Yeah, if I could actually see my life
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| Maybe I could compartmentalise the dark and the light.'
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| I woke up early that Tuesday as I did then every week
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| And the more times that I did that, the less I felt like a freak
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| But I got added to fixed list even though I struggle still
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| When the panic set in, it was all I knew
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| The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew
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| When the panic set in, it was all I knew
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| The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew
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| I used to have friends
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| I used to know why
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| I felt sad, if I ever did
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| But now I feel that all the time
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| I used to have friends
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| I used to know why
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| I felt sad, if I ever did
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| But now I feel that all the time
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| When the panic set in, it was all I knew
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| The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew
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| When the panic set in, it was all I knew
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| The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew |