Testo #1 - 1997

#1

I stuck my hand in the fire
I put one foot in the grave
When the rain came to drown everything
I was waiting in place
With my mind on an island in the vacant sea
It was terribly silent
No one ever talks to me
I’m in need of a doctor or shock therapy
Won’t you please wipe my memory clean?
I wanna be clean again
I wanna live like I’ve never been torn in two parts
I wanna be strangers again
I wanna exhume your body
Consume your heart
Make art of your every organ
I awoke with a start
My teeth on the gravel
In dampness so dark
Too deep to unravel
I thought I was alone but the ground began to scurry
And I followed my new friends home
We live without worry
(crawling through mossy cracks)
No heartbreak or hurry
(no one to blame no reason for shame)
I’m never coming back
What a lie I’ve become
All my senses have numbed
So I cut and I bleed
And you all drink of me
While I slowly drift asleep
I wanna be clean again
I’ll never be clean again