| I let somebody in, and then it killed me
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| Sometimes I hate that I always feel things
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| 'Cause everything I care for is always leaving
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| Me and my heart need to have a meeting, look
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| Fighting all the demons that are living in my mind
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| Can’t be looking back, when you leave it all behind
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| «Coulda, woulda, shoulda,"yeah, I hear it all the time
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| I got so much to say, but all I say is, «nevermind»
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| So let me let you in for a couple of minutes
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| Praying to God like, «Could you give me a minute?»
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| Forgive me for the ways that I’ve been living
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| I said that I’d be different, I know you don’t see a difference, but
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| You gave me this life, I’m just playing the cards
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| Every time I pray, I don’t know where to start
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| Grocery shopping, never filling the cart
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| There’s food for thought, I need food for the heart, yeah
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| Got my hoodie up, earphones all in
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| I didn’t go to work, I hardly call in
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| Told my mom, «Look, I gotta be all in»
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| Friends hit me up like, «When we ballin'?»
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| The girl I used to love, we’re hardly talkin'
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| 'Cause I’m locked and I’m chasing a dream, sleepwalkin'
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| I’m lost in the fact that money’s just costin' me
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| This the life that I need, all this ink that I bleed
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| Is to paint you a picture they don’t want you to see
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| That they don’t want you to be, to find the happier things
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| Money, clothes, women all material things
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| Will walk out and leave, but one day you’ll see
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| Tryna find my way on this one-way street
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| Staring at this road like it’s you and me
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| I’m not gonna run this time
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| From what I’ve buried deep inside
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| It’s time I left it all behind
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| So I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
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| Run this time
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| «I love you more"to «how you been?»
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| Same feelings every time again
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| Said we’d stay friends, but we ain’t friends
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| Yeah, come on now, really man, it feels so silly
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| You feel that you get me, but you don’t really get me
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| You don’t wanna talk, you think you know what I’m feeling
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| Oh you keep it a hundred? |
| Okay, I’ll keep it a milli
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| You lost out, and I’m coping
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| Tryna hang these feelings, but I’m roped in
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| When I say I’m heartless, I ain’t jokin'
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| Why do I keep something with me that’s broken?
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| Losing my patience, I’m out of it
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| Bringing up things that I’ve done like I’m proud of it
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| Making myself, can you tell that I’m adamant?
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| Christmas is coming and I’m wanting all of it
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| If you don’t get it now, you gotta get it yourself
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| Nobody thought I would be here, nobody thought I would sell
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| I look at myself, only one thing I can tell
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| If I could be anybody, it’d be nobody else
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| 24/7 I’m lookin' for heaven, I wonder, am I doin' enough?
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| You give us this freedom to we do what we want-and this sin is just put in our
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| cups
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| So tell me what I’m supposed to do, show me what I’m supposed to see
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| 'Cause seems like everybody knows who I am and the kind of person I’m supposed
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| to be
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| Finding myself in a world that is lost, my back has been living on walls
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| Gripping this mic like it’s all that is left, without music I’m nothing at all,
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| 'cause
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| I’m not gonna run this time
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| From what I’ve buried deep inside
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| It’s time I left it all behind
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| So I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
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| Run this time
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| I’m a waiter waiting on tables
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| Waiting for tables to turn
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| You live and you learn
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| In this life it ain’t about the money that you made
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| But what did you earn
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| Did you give love or did you take it
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| When she said «I love you,"did you break it?
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| When she started to cry, did you face it?
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| When you broke her heart, did you replace it?
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| Looking back at my past, I’m regretting a lot of it
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| All in my head, I’ve been tryna get out of it
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| Losing myself just to find who I am
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| Taking a leap just to find where I stand
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| Getting impatient, like when will I make it?
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| They tell me stop waiting, like go out and take it
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| Chasing a dream, but, like, what am I chasing?
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| Alone in my room, I’ve been constantly pacing
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| I look at myself and the things that I’ve said
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| Things I’ve let go, all the people I’ve kept
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| Investing in love, can you tell I’m in debt?
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| We fell so in love, like, did you forget?
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| Forget it, I’ll pick up the mess and I’ll leave it to rest
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| Close up the hole that you left in my chest
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| In love with a stranger, man, who would’ve guessed?
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| So I pick up this pen like it’s all I got left
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| I’m not gonna run this time
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| From what I’ve buried deep inside
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| It’s time I left it all behind
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| So I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
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| Run this time |