| [Vivian Wang &
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| Lasse Marhaug
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| Ok.
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| Page 2?
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| Yeah. |
| As I inhale, as I inhale, as I inhale and feel my lungs fill up with
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| black breath to exhale, what comes out is: I wanted to write to you about love.
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| I hate «love» in my own language. |
| It contains the entire word «honesty»
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| inside it, which makes it sound religious, protestant, hierarchic, purified.
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| The word «love» comes in the way of love, and makes me want to say sorry.
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| I say sorry with black breath, black letters staining the air around me,
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| the walls of the house, the bed, the desk. |
| Maybe «sorry» is the closest I ever
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| got to expressing love. |
| In my bed, honesty is lying on top of love,
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| sucking the blood out of it, occupying it. |
| What’s left is a little corpse.
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| I hope I don’t laugh when I read this. |
| Remember when I started saying «of corpse»? |
| Hahaha! |
| Every time I wanted to agree on something…
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| This is so funny. |
| Remember when I started saying «of corpse» every time I
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| wanted to agree on something? |
| I was inserting a little slice of death with my
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| agreement. |
| Whether it was coming out of my parents, coming out with my parents
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| for a boat trip, or agreeing that a boy was cute. |
| Corpse will definitely be
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| sitting inside the world for love. |
| Is that how you pronounce it?
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| 'Cause I’ve heard so many pronounce… Um-umbilical? |
| This is very visual,
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| I have a thousand placentas, they are all burnt, language doesn’t fit,
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| community, affinity, togetherness, the words don’t work, or they are blackened,
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| of corpse. |
| So, what about you and I? |
| For you, I feel a closeness that I can
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| only explain as love, the unknown, the black hole. |
| I was going to say «chaos»,
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| but I say «the unknown» because I don’t know where uncommon ideas and thoughts
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| come from. |
| Because I don’t know where are common ideas? |
| Do you have to say
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| common? |
| Um, is it ok to say, «But I say that wrong because I don’t know where
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| ideas and thoughts come from»? |
| Yeah
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| [Jenny Hval &
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| Laura Jean Englert
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| Someone who thinks that she’s made, 'cause she’s the most, like,
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| blasphemous being by some, like, just having, taking different choices in life.
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| Like, you know, like all the sacrifices you make as like difference,
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| and the mother and the daughter, the person that chooses where you begin in
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| life, and then there is something… maybe you, when you’re older,
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| you get to this point where you, um, realise that maybe we’re just like all
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| the others, and it really didn’t matter whether you were different.
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| So, I thought I was different, it’s something. |
| It’s like a, it’s like a
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| teenager would say, like, «I thought I was different but I’m just like the
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| others»
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| Yeah, but, uh, a teenager always believes secretly that they are different, um,
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| and…
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| Mm, they do, yeah, so, it’s like, everyone always thought they were different,
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| but as you get older…
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| Yes. |
| I’m still hanging onto that a little bit, but, I, I’ve just done some
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| writing about, um, this stuff, um, for a book about abortion, and, um…
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| what, one thing that I kind of felt, um, becoming someone who’s in their late
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| 30s that doesn’t have a child, it’s like, I have to accept that I’m part of
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| this human ecosystem, um, but I’m not the princess and I’m not the main
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| character? |
| Because I feel like maybe the main characters are the people that
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| have kids because they literally keep the virus going. |
| But, um, I’m like,
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| I thought, maybe I’m the talking tree, or, like, maybe I’m the witch,
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| or maybe I’m, I’m the, I’m a, a supporting character, and that’s a hard thing
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| for my ego to take, 'cause I wanna be the star of the human story, but I’m not.
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| I’m like a, I’m the, I’m someone that is in the background in regards to
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| survival 'cause I’m not directly supporting survival, I’m just, I’m supporting
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| it in a very abstract way, and possibly not supporting it
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| Possibly not supporting it, antagonist?
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| I’m, I could be an antagonist but antagonists are imperative for a virus to
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| survive because it makes it stronger
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| Yeah |